Who knew that ten days could pretty much make my life do a 180. I didn’t. You see, I had prayed leading up to this trip that Father (God) would just completely wreck me. While I was there I didn’t feel the wrecking of life that I thought I would feel. I was expecting an epiphany. When I got home I still didn’t really feel changed, little did I know that change comes in many shapes and sizes. I wasn’t destroyed or completely wrecked but I was changed for the better.
In Munich, I relied on Father. I relied on him to change people’s hearts, to lead me to english speakers, and to allow me to carry on a conversation that naturally would lead to Him. I also had to rely on him when I didn’t feel good and I had to continue his work. He always came through. He gave me peace and renewed my spirit each day, even when Satan was attacking me. He healed my hurting stomach and eased my worries. Even though I didn’t have a conversation that really led to his word, he still allowed me to speak about him in small ways. Most of all, he allowed me to continue his work in Munich, something he could have easily done himself but he loves us so much that he allows us to be apart of such a beautiful process.
I am changed. I now have learned how to rely on Father & what a blessing that is. My burdens and struggles are too big for me to carry alone. I have learned that prayer is a powerful tool. He listens to every prayer and always answers them, although the answer may not always be what you prayed for, he knows what’s best. I learned to really just be in his presence, even if I don’t feel his presence. Father is not a “thing” we feel. He is an almighty being/spirit that is always there, and we won’t always feel him. Most of all I learned that He is already at work everywhere and he can use me anywhere and in any way he wants. I need to go somewhere with an open heart and mind because what I may have decided I want to do in his name may not always be what he has decided, and his idea is always better. However, he always wants us to share the Word wherever we are, whether that be praying that the person next to you at your favorite coffee shop would one receive the Word or starting up a conversation about the Word to the woman next to you on a plane. He always wants us to share him with others.
“Pray in the Spirit at all times and on every occasion. Stay alert and be persistent in your prayers for all believers everywhere. And pray for me, too. Ask God to give me the right words so I can boldly explain God’s mysterious plan that the Good News is for Jews and Gentiles alike. I am in chains now, still preaching this message as God’s ambassador. So pray that I will keep on speaking boldly for him, as I should.” Ephesians 6:18-20
On another note, Munich was amazing. I loved getting to experience many cultures all in one place. It’s pretty awesome how father can bring so many backgrounds into one city. We were able to concentration camp too, which was such an eye-opening experience. I absolutely loved this city.
I left my heart in Munich.